Blerh... i'm supposed to be in astronomy right now but i'm typing up my journal anyways XD; i know i haven't posted alot lately you guys, but i'm gettin' there xP i have alot of artwork thats soon to come with Cinema 4D and Torque engines 8D; as well as alot of illustrator and photoshop images ^-^;; but my scanners broken, and i'm still workin' on alot of them >>; patience is a virtue and i still need to look for another job. andwelli'mrunningoutoftimenowsoi'llrespondtoyouguyslatertakecarenowcyasgah!!! O-o;; *runs to class*

o-o;; amazingly enough.. thanks to my friend Jubs916, i now have a artist display tag thingy! ^o^ gracias amigo XP eew spanish x_x;; anyways... sadly i haven't been able to have access to a computer and/or a scanner, since my moms on one of her trips about me being on a computer X.X;;; so yes... sadly i'm not able to add any pictures. v.v; but! O.o;; i will let you know that my art has amazingly progressed in style and appearance o-o; i'm getting better xD;;; wootness! XP but ja... o-o; thats about it i think... OH OH!! gaia! O-o;; i've gotten back into gaia like crazy ._.;; sadly lol. xP mah friends all love me there >D; so if your interested, my new Gaia name is xMilo_Foxfirex feel free to drop by and say somethin' or...somethin' XD

O__________________O!!!!!!!!!! just as the journal said.. YAY!!! XD I HAVEN'T LOST IT!! <3

Lame and scary title i know >.>;; eesh x.x;; but who knows how long its been since i last upda- *glances at his journal* X_X;; OMGASH!! i'm a slacket T_T; i think its because of the stress and drama i've been having to go through x.x;; *sigh* but ANYWAYS!! 8D with a little bit more of inspiration from fellow deviants, (a couple in general <.<; ahem) i've decided to try to get back into my artwork, diving head first into my old drawing and starting to scan them... even tho i should actually to finish up some of my final ones oO;;; ja.... maybe thats a good idea XD; *yays photoshop* and also, it seems to me that my scanner still seems to hate me <.<; so i've decided to bring in one of my favorite tools to make it work again *pulls out giant rock* whee! >3 well, hopefully things will come around for me.. look forward to my future artwork guys! cuz this Fursona hasn't given up all hope just yet

~Reno

P.S. X.x;; i'm dying of sickness so i'm home from my college classes XD YAY! <3

wow... X-x;; its been too long since i last updated in this damn cursed place.. anyways.. *sigh* i guess things could go way better for me but i guess i shouldn't be complaining since things could be way worse... v.v;; but worst comes to worse, my art talent has literally flopped on itself... X_X; it scared me so badly, since i haven't picked up a pencil in such a long time... that my talent has literally given up x.x;;; ><;; but i'm not giving up dammit X_x;; i just wish my scanner worked.. *sighs and pokes dusty scanner with a stick* v.v; anyways.. this isn't what this journal entry is about...

Have you ever wondered.. after so long of waiting from something that happened in your life.. that changed your life forever because of what happened?... v.v; in my case.. it would be the girlfriends that i've had over a 5 year period... and to be honest.. i'm appalled and crushed to bits and pieces now that i look back at my life... v.v; cuz i used to be so happy i guess... but from what?.. was it companionship i so desired?... v.v; to be honest.. i believe it is. i've been so lonely this past few years... cuz its as if relationships keep getting rubbed in my face. i miss having a girlfriend, or someone who i know i can love and hold and care for all those times when she needed me... and i look back to the people who i used to date on their myspaces and gaia accounts and other places (Furcadia X_x;; blegh) and.... it puts me in a weird position.. v.v; i see them, and they're with their new boyfriends (or girlfriends x.x;;; ) and they're expressing their love to one another in ways that i could never imagine myself... and it pains me to the core knowing that i never was able to experience that first hand from...........anyone.. *sigh*. but, the thing is... not only am i hurt by seeing them...

...i'm also happy...

happy cuz.. i can finally put myself at ease and know that they're happier now with a specific other person.. v.v;; i just wish someone would come into my life and show me that passionate desire i so want...

whoever you are.... save me... please v.v;;